2 years on: the Great Depression

On 7th May, 2 years ago, I handed in my Masters thesis. I was super stoked and relieved, plus excited to crack on with trying to function like a proper human being again.

What actually happened was that I had 4 days of relative chill before the biggest mental breakdown of my entire life, in a swanky bar with Rebecca Deluce in the middle of Copenhagen, which resulted in me being really, really ill for a while instead…

This photo is bittersweet because I literally had no idea at the time that things were going to get hella lairy imminently: I thought I was already at rock bottom! Looking back, I can say that I’m truly super proud of myself for getting through one of the most challenging periods of my life so far. Plus, my mates and fam are absolutely solid and I wish everybody going through a tough time had that kind of support behind them. Wouldn’t be here without it.

So: life is like a box of chocolates, folks! Sometimes you think you’ve picked up a praline and you take a bite to find it’s orange, instead. It’s really, really sad but remember you can always pick up another choccy straight after and hope that one’s better.

P. S. this photo is the first in the folder I made of images from when I was poorly, remind me to take a look at those photos when/if I think about penning a PhD proposal in a few years’ time…

CURRENT READ: Notes on a Nervous Planet by Matt Haig 🌍

I had to get my pencil out again to take notes in the margins: Haig’s words are so apt and resonant, I feel like every other paragraph hits a nerve or deserves to be printed off and stuck on my wall as a reminder for the bad days.

Mental health and wellbeing should be valued by society in the same way that physical ailments are. Everybody has mental health and everybody struggles, yet mental health remains such a stigma. It’s crucial that we normalise dialogues about mental health because dialogues literally have the power to save lives!

Haig has once again created a universally relevant guidebook for humans who are trying to survive the chaos of the modern day, with its infinite distractions and relentless pace. I’m only 50 pages in so far but I can already tell that this book is going to be special for me, in the same way that Reasons to Stay Alive is.